Well hello... and welcome to new my blog! I am very excited to start this blog to "document" a part of my life that I have nobody to talk to about... I am ana/mia. I struggle with this daily and I have the epitome of a love/hate relationship with it. I am a thinspo fanatic... so expect a lot of it... I am more into "real girl" thinspo.


I also struggle with a lot of guilt from day to day, because I have a family of my own to take care of. Yes, I am a mother to twins, one boy and one girl. I was ana/mia before I got pregnant with them, I did stop during the pregnancy because I put them and their health first. But post pregnancy was horrible... my body has been ruined, period.


I also have a fiance who is deployed to Iraq now. He knew about my ED pre pregnancy, but has no idea about this time.... and it will stay that way. He would be furious and wouldn't understand. My love will be back from deployment around Sept. of '09. I miss him so much... and I cannot wait for him to be back home, safe with us!


So you can expect a lot of thinspo, updates on myself, my wonderful children, and my other half which is in Iraq.

On a side note, if you are an everyday calorie counter looking to have an eating disorder, please leave now... I in no way, shape, or form condone eating disorders and I am NOT going to "help" you form one.


I'll be back on tomorrow to update. Hope everyone is doing well and has a good night.